She Meets Life

just when you think you know someone or at least you think you understand them fully, they stab you behind your back with no sense of feeling at all. heartless. beneficial to them only. one way friendship. That's what most of my relationships feel...i see it a lot happen too. i don't understand it. I guess you are never "really" close with the person until you _____...hmmm. help me finish the sentence. i hate relationships sometimes..just want to be by myself the whole time and understand how i am. or maybe i have a "porcelain heart". It's so fragile; always need to be taken care of. simply a poetic way of explaining my weakness. what do you guys say?

i apologize for not writing often...it's been super busy for me. i haven't had time and also...i know that there isn't anyone reading my blog anyway... However, i found time today yet i find it very difficult to express what I'm feeling.

I just didn't know what to do.  why am i here next to her? hold up. she came next to me... Everyone goes through roommate drama college... but that's what i don't want to focus my life on. there are plenty more dramas for me in the future and roommate dramas should not be one of them. ok. This just in... I didn't get the sholarship i applied for. In a way, I expect that but I wanted to surprise myself as well.  eff this. i don't care. i just have to work harder. this bad news is an incentive to push myself harder. fighting!!