She Meets Life

It's one way.  No regrets.

I have so much to say. i want to pour it all out. But I'm at loss of words. It's at the tip of my tongue. I really want to say it...but i always contradict myself.

I'm addicted to sweet things. I'm not only talking in terms of food but also intangible things. I like to do nice things...look at nice things. Because the world is full of ugly things, I am only attracted to nice things. Is that a bad thing? The reason i bring this up is because people instantly become attracted to things that please their eyes. We tend to hide or run away from the ugly things. i just don't get it. I tell myself that everyone and everything has both pretty and ugly side to it. But honestly, i, myself, can't handle the ugly things in life. the society is corrupt.

Hello world. I'm back! I apologize for the looong silence. Things have been...it's been a roller coaster ride. In a way, everything relates to one another. I've been in school but lagging...being unproductive...it's not the usual me. Let's just say that the spring semester wasn't what I had expected. Forget the goals i was determined to achieve...I continued to postpone and procrastinate. Then...there was the last month of the semester when I met "him". I couldn't have been happier. It was obvious too. Everyone had seen it in my eyes...except him. Who knows? maybe he did see it..but he sure did take it much more lightly than I did. It seemed like it meant nothing to him. It seemed like what he gave me was what he did on a daily basis. How I felt never occurred to him. summer slowly creep-ed up...and without any realization, he was leaving soon. While he was passionately conversing and fantasizing about his future goals and leaving, I continu...