She Meets Life

Out of the seven billion people on this planet, you happened to be the one. the one who gave me reason to believe that everything would be alright. the reason that I would make it through this long, dark tunnel. the little light at the end of the tunnel didn't fade because of you. you, of all people, gave me a ray of hope to keep moving forward. you, of all people, motivated me to keep my head up and stand tall. It was scary to imagine how I would be without you. Part of me knew my insanity was because of being attached to you yet I continued to use you as a motivation tool. Hearing from you once a week was enough to get me going through the week. I even used to be okay with your arrogant and ignorant responses. I told myself "that's not how he is"..."he doesn't mean it." Then I came to realize that I stooped so low to the point that even I didn't want myself. Looking back, I was a fool who wanted n...

It's been over six months since I've lived in this city and I'm just starting to realize that the people I've become friendly with are people who attend church and people who pray. I've never really discussed "God" or my religion with others when I lived in California. Honestly, it's new to me and I'm having trouble describing how I really feel. As I write in this blog, I am slowly trying to organize my thoughts about whether I am religious. In my younger years, I have attended many Buddhist prayer sessions, sat on the floor like every other Buddhists, moving each prayer beads one by one while reciting the mantras like I was taught to. I never really understood what the prayers meant or why it was important to pray. I also never recall having discussions with my parents about what it means to be a Buddhist. Then there was one time when I was invited by a friend's family to attend Sunday church. I was probably 14 or 15 years old. At first I di...

I hate that I still have feelings for you. And that I can't move on. I hate that you don't give a shit about me... But at the same time, I like that your ignorance is making me into a stronger person. I guess meeting you wasn't a mistake afterall. 💪

"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant. but it is very important that you do it because,  You can't know;  You can't ever really know the meaning of your life, and you don't need to.  Just know that your life has a meaning.  Every life has a meaning; whether it lasts one-hundred years or one-hundred seconds. Every life and every death changes the world in its own way.  Gandhi knew this.  He knew his life would mean something to someone, somewhere, somehow.  And he knew with as much certainty that he could never know that meaning.  He understood that enjoying life should be of much greater concern than understanding it.  And so do I.  You can't know.  So don't take it for granted; but don't take it too seriously.  Don't postpone what you want.  Don't leave anything misunderstood.  Make sure the people you care about know.  Make sure they know how you really feel.  Be...

"Your eyes, they shine so bright I wanna save that light I can't escape this now Unless you show me how"

"I tremble at the thought of falling in love with a tiny part of someone and mistaking it for the whole." - Rupi Kaur

What is stronger than the human heart which shatters over and over and still lives. -Rupi Kaur

"i will tell you about selfish people. even when they know they will hurt you they walk into your life to taste you because you are the type of being they don't want to miss out on. you are too much shine to be felt. so when they have gotten a good look at everything you have to offer. when they have taken your skin your hair and your secrets with them. that is when the cowardice sets in. that is when the person you thought they were is replaced by the sad reality of what they are. that is when they lose every fighting bone in their body and leave after saying you will find better than me. you will stand there naked with half of them still hidden somewhere inside you and sob. asking them why they did it. why they forced you to love them when they had no intention of loving you back and they'll say something along the lines of i just had to try, i had to give it a chance, it was you after all.  but that isn't romantic. it isn't sweet. the idea that...

you treat them as if they have a heart like yours but not everyone can be as soft and as tender as you you don't see the person they are you see the person they have the potential to be you give and give till they have taken everything out of you and leave you empty -rupi kaur

purpose of life = finding yourself and doing what you love = happiness. How do we achieve happiness? = creating a plan or simply doing what you want. downside to not planning thoughtfully only results in temporary happiness. for example: retail therapy On the other hand, life is short. live it to the fullest right?! Does doing what you want make others happy? = some yes, others no but you can't make everyone happy. So who cares, keep doing what you're doing, right? NOT. Prioritize the important people and the people that's been there with you thru thick and thin. Family.close friends.your loved ones. if you want to achieve happiness - drama = you should be doing what you want without thinking of others? No. what happens when you do things without thinking about others? you start to isolate yourself but you gain freedom. However, you loose the real meaning of being happy or "true" happiness. also, everything becomes superficial. You start to w...

I watched a video of a young man who was tried and put in prison for a crime he committed as a minor. Then he was put in solitary confinement for misbehaving in prison. He mentioned in the talk that during his time in confinement, he began pacing, then talking to himself. And whatever he thought, controlled him. This may seem like it's going in a bad direction but surprisingly, he decided to use his time in prison to better himself. Because the other prisoners or guards sure as hell won't make him better. Long story short, he was able to utilize his time in prison by reading and educating himself. He now works towards rehabilitating the youth who are going through the same thing he went through as a kid. His aim and purpose is only guiding the juvenile prisoners forward and towards a better future for them. This video made me think of how much mind has control over us. Surely, you don't have to be confined in small cell to understand that your mind can control your action...

...most of the time, it's something I feel that can't be described. At the same time, I don't even know whether what I feel is l'amour or not because I fear facing those feelings. I fear it might not get reciprocated or understood. We've all felt this feeling. It doesn't have to be love for a partner..but love in general. We all desire to be loved from the day we are born until we die. Babies long for their mother's love. Mother's long for their husband's love. Husbands from their father or brother..etc. etc. Then there are ways of expressing love. tough love. platonic love. unconditional love. And everyone expresses love differently. Everyone receives it differently. Why does a relationship end catastrophically when you love too much or too little? Is it possible to love anyone? first love. true love. love at first sight. it's all so silly. I learned about a beach in Denmark. At the end of the beach, you stand watching the ocean waves....

We all have them. and most of the time, we want it to come true. we want it to become real. But how can we if we don't do anything about it? To be realistic, the term we should really focus on is GOALS. The terms dream and goal intertwine with each other or sometimes used separately depending on the context. Goals are achievable. Goals help us to think realistically. Goals are dreams with a deadline! I'm not saying it's childish to dream but it's childish when you don't set a limit for yourself. When you're a child, you dream of becoming a doctor, an engineer, a professional athlete, etc... and when you're old enough, you can and should turn those dreams into goals. Only then, it will become real. So what's your dream? And will you do something about it to turn it into a goal so that eventually you can make your dreams come true? Don't let it fool you or discourage you because you think it's silly or childish to dream. Dreams can...