She will be loved.

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just realized i haven't been writing since december...so sad.
It's been pretty hectic the past few months...I turned 21.
yeah it sounds exciting but i beginning to realize i have so many more responsibilities than i already have. It sure is a lot of work.

Speaking of work. I'm getting tired of my job. It's not the pay but the experience i get out of it.
I get paid well but i don't see this job helping me in the future. Maybe when i'm married and have kids..it will help but other than that...not much of help.

are you wondering what kind of job i have???

I'm a nanny/sitter. been since my sophomore year of high school. I'm a junior in college. It's a differnt family of course since i moved in the city but i'm still watching kids...driving them to their lessons...feeding them...same thing everyday...it gets very repetitive.
I love them no doubt but i need to get out of my comfort zone.

I already know i'm afraid to be out there in the business world. I know i'm going to go through a lot of hardships, even meet people who will discourage or look down on me based on my experience....
I don't feel ready.
I don't have time to sit around and be scared.

But that's the beauty of being spontaneous. We'll never know what it brings. Regardless of positive or a negative outcome..it's a memory..an experience..a lesson. 



Open a new door! who knows...I might love it.

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