ambiguity

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hello guys,
it's been a while. I've been preoccupied with many things. I'll start out with school cuz that's excusable for not updating my blog. lol
Summer school is goin' by quicker than i thought. 4hr classes. 2 classes. 5weeks. on top of that there's my job. which is not as stressful as i thought it'd be but having to wake up early as 7:30am when you've only gotten 3-4hrs of sleep the night before is challenging. Because not only does it ruin my sleeping routine but my whole day is wasted by either trying to catch up with sleep or doing something completely unproductive.
I don't know why I've been acting like this. I was fine the first week of school. I wasn't distracted at all..
something hit me.
Is it him that's bothering me??
I'm scared that the relationship that i want with him end out to be being back to strangers...Life can't always be the way you want it to be but just this once...i wish i could be by his side once again.
It's been over a month and i can't get over it. He'll be back but knowing the fact that he'll be gone again pains me.
Do I end it nicely or do i avoid him?

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